Something that has been on my mind frequently over the past few months is the realization that my life now is so vastly different from what I would have imagined it would be 5 years ago. It’s a strange and somewhat heavy thing to acknowledge the ways in which my best-laid-plans haven’t unfolded and others have caught me by surprise. It has been strange to see how what my best for me clearly was not God’s best for me. It’s overwhelming and awe inspiring to see His sovereignty.
5 years ago, I would have sworn by 24 I would be married and probably have a baby too.
5 years ago, I expected by now to have built up my horse business and maybe have my own facility.
5 years ago, I had no intentions of going to college.
5 years ago, the idea of missions was cool and maybe someday I would go to Africa or something.
5 years ago, I figured I would probably spend the rest of my life living in the county I grew up in.
5 years ago, I had a small circle of friends who I figured would be my only friends forever.
5 years ago, my biggest dreams were so, so, so small.
Today, I have spent time dating and I have spent time being single and I have experienced all sorts of heart hurts along the way, but now I’m dating an incredible man with whom I get to grow and seek the Lord together. I’m thankful for ever unmarried moment that has brought me here and all that God has done in me and taught me through these various seasons.
Today, I don’t have horses and I can’t remember the last time I actually rode. But I now know that I’m not a “one trick pony” (ha…) and that there are so many other talents and skills that God has given me and wants me to use to further the kingdom.
Today, I’m about to graduate with my B.S. in under 4 years after paying my way through, and I have even spent the past few months toying with the idea of grad school. Who even am I?
Today, every life decision I make is centered on my desire to expand the kingdom and to see the entire world receive the hope and joy that I have been given. I’m ready to go.
Today, the world is so big. I’m thankful for where I am from, but there more places to which I’m going.
Today, community means something new and my circle of friends is ever expanding. It’s a beautiful world full of beautiful people and I want to experience beautiful relationships with them.
Today, my dreams just keep getting bigger and bigger.
So really, I’m just thankful that my life didn’t go the way I planned. I’m thankful that the Lord knows better and has such good, good things for me.